Last summer I shared reflections about a decision I made that had a significant impact on my life – the choice to stay at my place of employment through a significant change in strategy, structure and role. I also wrote about the impact of those changes at work, that ended my regular interactions with many people and thus disrupted my relationships with them. Over the past year I have leaned in to helping lead the changes at every level – with my head by planning, creating new processes, organizing teams and work, figuring out solutions to problems; with my heart by building new relationships and deepening existing ones, bringing empathy to those who were struggling with change, supporting those who were excited or wanted to grow in their personal development; and with my body by taking action, working long hours and being decisive. I have grown so much, both personally and professionally. I have developed experience and expertise beyond my familiar domain of data and analytics, with organizational change and development, business processes and leadership at a completely new level.
And now, after a year, I have come to the realization that it is time for me to move on. I know in my heart that this is the right move for me. But that does not make it easy. Walking away means letting go of one choice and committing to another choice, one that is much less known. It means changing relationships again as my connections with people shift. I am in a period of grieving, and I expect that to continue for a while. I have been part of my organization for nine years, and it has grown to be a part of me, of my identity. I have fallen in love with the people I work with, over and over, and the difficult times we have gone through together have just strengthened our connections rather than weakened them.
I think I need to rest for a while, before I discover what is next for me in my career. No doubt this change will shift what I write about, so it seemed important to share with you all.
Thanks for reading and for you insightful comments.